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i'm alone
so completely and totally alone
it's a state of my own making
i can argue
i was born this way
some cruel joke the universe played
but i have a choice
i can choose not to be like this
not to be alone

i'm alone
so completely and totally alone
i'm surrounded by people who care
and yet
i feel like an outsider looking in
a part, yet separate
the warm embrace of acceptance eludes me

i'm alone
so completely and totally alone
and while the tears of loneliness
silently flow like a soothing stream
i know that as scared as i am
to be forever this way
alone
i'm just as scared
if not more so
to not be
alone