i wish i knew where it came from...or at least knew the trigger...
how do i go from smiles to tears in the blink of an eye? how do i go from a calm soothing state to a tempestuous storm in the flash of a nanosecond?
i fear knowing the answers won't really help. sure there would be some peace in knowing, but knowing doesn't necessarily change the turmoil that lies buried deep within me from surfacing out of the blue.
maybe i need to work on the power of positive thinking and happy thoughts. maybe i need to ride out the storm and hope the next will stay at bay for awhile...talk about wishful thinking.