My newest adventure is underway. It has lead me to take up residency in a new blog,
Like the Feathers of an Arrow (affectionately known as LFA).

...don't open...don't throw away... is not disappearing completely (not yet),
but postings here will be limited.

Saturday, March 6, 2010

0 time to let go...

i need to suck it up and let go.  i have held on to this security blanket for to long.  doing so has and is a detriment to my health and well being.  i need to stop hiding behind it.  i need to stop using it as an excuse to face what truly is wrong with me.  letting go is not easy.  it will take much effort, time and determination.  and to keep my will strong once i have finally achieved my goal so that i do not relapse back and cover myself once again in its warmth and comfort seems impossible.  but i cannot let that stop me.  i must find away to push away my demons and do this for me. 

Friday, March 5, 2010

0 best friend

Sleep is my best friend.  I cannot remember a time where sleep was not with me.  When I was younger it was a reprieve from my headaches.  Every day after school I meet up with my best friend on the couch.  Now adays, sleep walks with me for another reason.  Sleep helps me to forget my worries.  I find comfort in sleeps arms.  When my best friend greets me, I am able to escape.  Unfortunately, I spend too much time with this friend of mine.  I know I should distance myself, but it is not very easy.

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

0 how do I...

how do I tell you that you are not alone
we were all there once
looked down upon and stereotyped
for some, time has faded the memory
for others, it is clear as day

how do I show you that you are not alone
we have all felt the pressure
weighed down by others' expectations
some have forced the memory away
others hold on to it tightly

how do I help you understand that you are not alone
we were all there once
struggling to simply be young
for some, it is lost and so they do on to you as was done to them
for others, it is a knowledge they wish to pass on to you

how do I...
when your focus is on the some who cannot remember
when all you feel is the some who oppress
the some whose expectations for you are limited
how do I get passed them to make an impact on you

how do I...
one of the others who understands were you are coming from
one who has seen what you have yet to see
who knows where you are going
how do I impart on to you that I truly do understand