0 it's not about who, but why...

two weeks ago, i came across Six Word Saturday.  i didn't find mine until Sunday.  [social anxiety follows me into cyberspace.]  though they did not find their way to me in time, they did give birth to a poem.  i found my next set of six on Thursday...[I don't like who I am.]...by Saturday i was lost to them.  only remnants of them lie in a poem untold.  so now i find myself yet again staring at another Saturday and a feeling that has been plaguing me all day.  it didn't take much effort to put into six words...

not who, but why am I?

if read correctly, it may seem a bit unnerving.  i'm obviously not in a good place at the moment...but i have an amazing talent for rebounding.  I know this too shall pass.  (that is also six words; go figure.)

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i decided to pull together the remnants and tell the untold...the idea is six six words, although technically the title would make seven...

I Don't Like Who I Am

Today, I looked closely at myself.

I reflected on who I was;

I picked apart who I am;,

pondered who I wished to be.

what I found was quite disturbing.

how do i correct my path?

0 Stay Here and Hold Me

Please

my dear

do not go

stay here with me

hold me in your arms

infuse me with your warmth

scare away the chill of night

enfold me with your tender love

ward off the feelings of loneliness

tonight I need to feel you beside me

0 Smile & Breathe

with the start of a new year, i thought it a good idea to set forth a new resolution.  in reflecting lately, i have found that i don't like who i have become.  i have lost my hopeful, idealistic, and encouraging self.  instead i find that i nitpick and have become more judgmental and jaded.  so my goal is to try to let things go--not allow them to take over me and fester in me.  i have to be more positive.  i have found it not to be an easy task.  every time i turn around someone seems to be trying my patience.  the retorts and annoyance bubbles up within me like a switch has been flipped.  

in an effort to control things within me, i have developed a new mantra that i find myself using quite often.  "Smile and Breathe."  i don't know if it working, but time will tell.