My newest adventure is underway. It has lead me to take up residency in a new blog,
Like the Feathers of an Arrow (affectionately known as LFA).

...don't open...don't throw away... is not disappearing completely (not yet),
but postings here will be limited.

Wednesday, March 21, 2012

1 dried up?

The end of April fast approaches and I find myself having written only 5 (six if you include this one) posts.  My initial absence was anxiety related; I needed to purge the irrational thoughts that began when I got my first follower and when I began participating in different blogging communities.  Now I find myself at a standstill, uncertain how to get back to where I began.  My state of being now is lost, wordless, depressed, lacking in motivation, uncaring....  I want to find my way back, I'm just not certain I'm ready or that it's possible.  It's not unusual for me to go through spurts of not writing.  I can look back over my years and find large gaps; either I became to busy or lost inspiration or found inspiration in other endeavors.  I think it is something about this particular medium that makes me itch to not let time pass by so unnoticed as I have in the past when using paper and pencil.  I don't know...  Maybe I need to borrow from the logical part of my brain and revamp my blogging into a more structured (prescribed) entity.  I really just don't know.  Is it worth it?  Aside from me, would anyone really even care?  Do I truly care?  Maybe I just need to stop thinking and start writing.