1 dried up?

The end of April fast approaches and I find myself having written only 5 (six if you include this one) posts.  My initial absence was anxiety related; I needed to purge the irrational thoughts that began when I got my first follower and when I began participating in different blogging communities.  Now I find myself at a standstill, uncertain how to get back to where I began.  My state of being now is lost, wordless, depressed, lacking in motivation, uncaring....  I want to find my way back, I'm just not certain I'm ready or that it's possible.  It's not unusual for me to go through spurts of not writing.  I can look back over my years and find large gaps; either I became to busy or lost inspiration or found inspiration in other endeavors.  I think it is something about this particular medium that makes me itch to not let time pass by so unnoticed as I have in the past when using paper and pencil.  I don't know...  Maybe I need to borrow from the logical part of my brain and revamp my blogging into a more structured (prescribed) entity.  I really just don't know.  Is it worth it?  Aside from me, would anyone really even care?  Do I truly care?  Maybe I just need to stop thinking and start writing.