My newest adventure is underway. It has lead me to take up residency in a new blog,
Like the Feathers of an Arrow (affectionately known as LFA).

...don't open...don't throw away... is not disappearing completely (not yet),
but postings here will be limited.

Saturday, June 26, 2010

0 encounter #52...continued...

Her:  So then, it would appear that you know more about me than I know about you.
Him:  Maybe, but not the important stuff.
Her:  Like?
Him: you have a boyfriend.

[She laughed.]

Her:  Seriously?  Do you really think that I could manage a boyfriend, when I can't touch him; when he can't touch me...

[She glanced up at the clock.]

Her:  It appears our time is up.  If you are still interested in participating in the study, you can speak with the hyper kid who brought you in and he'll set up another appointment.
Him:  Wow, I did not realize how quickly time seemed to go by.  We never...
Her:  It's okay, you're not the first to bide his time when it came to first contact. 

[She stood and gestured for him to preceed her.  He opened his mouth to say something, then shook his head and exited in front of her.  She slipped her gloves out of her pocket and slowly placed them on before following suit.]

0 sleep paralysis

it has a name.  i don't know what took me so long to look it up, but i finally did.  typed in 'dream paralysis' and low and behold found out that it wasn't just me.  there really exist a clinical definition for what i experience.  i read through a couple of different sites and checked out several videos.  some videos were documentary type; other videos were people explaining there experience.  oh, and there is apparently some lore behind the whole thing, 'old hag' and others.  there are two different types, one that includes hallucinations including sound and shadows; the other type is simply the inability to move.  very interesting really.

there are some discrepancies with my experiences.  one, they state sleep deprivation as one of the reason for it.  As far as i'm concerned, i am most definitely not sleep deprived.  i actually curbed the amount i slept to keep it at bay because it seems the more i sleep the more likely it is to happen.  i'm also a little interested in finding out what waking from this sleep paralysis is like for others.  for me, i am not only physically a little sluggish, but my mind/brain is in a big giant fog.  it takes a good hour or so for me to finally feel normal after waking from an episode. 

knowing though helps.  it should take some of the fear out of it.  though i doubt the fear will ever disappear. 

Sunday, June 20, 2010

0 encounter #52...continued...

Her:  I like the chance to get to know someone the old fashion way.  Granted things happen in the flash of a vision, but there is still that feeling of getting to know someone. 
Him:  How often do you get to know someone outside of a vision?
Her:  It has been quite a long while.

[He gestured between them.]

Him:  Does this count?
Her:  Well, it has been a bit one sided so far.  You asking questions; me doing most of the revealing.  And even then your questions have been a focused like an inquisition.  I'm not so sure this counts.

[A half smile appears on his face as he nods in thought.]

Him:  Well then, what would you like to know about me?
Her:  Hmm.  I don't really know.  Like a said I'm not really good at small talk and it has been a long time since I had a chance to really get to know someone.

[He waited patiently, not saying a word.  A minute passed in silence.]

Her:  I suppose you are waiting for me to come up with a question.

[He shrugged, but the smile on his face was a silent agreement.]

Her:  Fine.  Why are you here?  What made you decide to participate in this research study?
Him:  Curiosity.
Her:  That's it?  Curiosity?
Him:  Yeah, pretty much.  I saw an article in a magazine about you and was a bit fascinated by the whole idea.  So I did a little research and found out about this study. 

[He shrugged.]

Him:  I thought why not?