0 He spoke to me...

The conversation replays itself
over and over again
in slow motion
and on fast forward
they echo within my head
phrases eat away at me
those spoken and those left unspoken
was there something hidden there
did i miss the underlying thoughts
deep down i wish there was something
a word
a phrase
a look
anything that i might cling to
anything that i might elaborate
anything that i might exploit
i need to believe there was more
i need to believe that i am something more
i need to believe that someone else sees it too
so on the conversation will go
until i've turned it over
hoping to create a foundation
where a seed might take hold and grow
but alas there is nothing
but my own desires exploited
and my own fears realized

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my heart
starts racing
and words
start tumbling
through my mind
i do my best
to push it all aside
i try to act
like you don't affect me
the way you do

0 fortune cookie #1

"Today it's up to you to create the peacefulness you long for."

That's all well and good, but any advice on how to do that.  As it is, I have been searching for just that.  I have wished for some semblance of peace to wash over me.  I look outward.  I look inward.  And still I am at a loss.  So obviously searching is not the right method...but creating...is there a recipe book for that?

0 lyrics...a start...

Do you
think about me
the way that I do
about you
Do you
wonder what I'm thinking
wonder what I'm feeling
when I'm around you