last night as i lay in bed i found myself once again pondering the idea of happiness. [i just typed 'happy' into the search area for my posts and found 28 results.] anyway, i wrote a post awhile back where i tried to wrapped my mind around "happiness is a mood not a destination." i'm not sure if i had heard that or saw it or if it too had been part of some late night ponderings that inevitably found its way here. regardless it skirted my thoughts last night...
there is something about this season that feels like a time of dreams and wishes...a time were anything is possible. [truth be told, i think i just watch too many Lifetime and Hallmark movies.] so last night my brain got to thinking about being happy. [i'll abbreviate the discussion i had in my head...mainly 'cause it can be quite hard to follow may train of thought as i jump from idea to idea, which i'm sure those of who actually read my ramblings probably already know.] in short happiness is a state of being that fluxuates from happy to sad...i mean can you really have one without the other. it was about at that moment, with the fluxuation concept, that i realized what my real problem is. it's not being happy so much as being balanced...i don't fluxuate.
so what do i wish for...dream of...
more importantly how do i obtain it...how long do i wait for it to find me...when will stop dreaming and wishing and start being...
as far as i'm concerned, that way too many questions.
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