this letting of words is my treatment...my salvation. it pulls all the toxins from my mind, body, and soul.
My newest adventure is underway. It has lead me to take up residency in a new blog, Like the Feathers of an Arrow (affectionately known as LFA). ...don't open...don't throw away... is not disappearing completely (not yet), but postings here will be limited. |
Wednesday, July 27, 2011
6 Flawed Love
Flawed Love
I thought you could love me for who I am
and so I hid her from your sight.
if I could explain the logic to this,
I'd draw you a beautiful diagram
outlining my perfectly flawed thoughts
for I know they're flawed
and
irrational
and
me
these perfectly flawed thoughts are who I am;
and so even if I could explain
I wouldn't
for I've hidden her from you.
(wow talk about some crazy logic)
but it doesn't really matter
you see
the problem is I didn't take into account
I would want
you to love me
for who I am
and now I'm lost
uncertain how to unearth her
uncertain
whether you can still love me for who I am
uncertain
of me and whether I'm still worth loving
is it wrong that I hope you'll hear this plea
and tell me you knew me all along
is it wrong that I hope I'm a horrible liar
and you'll tell me you have loved me all along
that you were just waiting for me
to be okay
with me
I thought you could love me for who I am
and so I hid her from your sight
not realizing it wasn't so much about you
as it was about the fact that
I thought I
could never love me
for who I am
I'm still working on that,
loving me for who I am.
I'm just hoping that
maybe we could work on it
together.
i am currently working on desensitizing myself to my own voice...and some how i thought dVerse ~ Poets Pub might be the best outlet with their OpenLinkNight. today marks week two. they opened their doors last week and i entered with a bit of trepidation...but the atmosphere is quite welcoming and fun...with a lot of amazing poets stepping up to the stage. if you get a chance stop in and take in some wonderful poetry.
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See, I believe that before you can love someone, you have to love and believe in yourself first.
ReplyDeleteIf we put a mask, we don't draw and keep the "right" person or friend.
A soulful poem..thanks for sharing it.
Nice to meet you~
Whoa! Have you been hiding in MY mind! This is such an amazing, write for me to read, because I can so relate to the words you have penned. I so often doubt that if I were to reveal my true self, that anyone could love me, but my heart hopes they do, despite my so many perfect flaws. You touched this heart...thank you! And glad you're enjoying the pub! You'll be amazed at how easy it is for some of these wonderful writers to really bring out your best!
ReplyDeletethis is a gorgeous and honest write...dangerous game trying to be somone for one to love and then afraid if they knew the real you they would turn away...great piece
ReplyDeleteHoping it gets easier. Certainly touched that place in all writers that is somewhat insecure. It takes the ability to be both inside and outside ourselves to be able to write. Thanks for linking. Keep writing!
ReplyDeleteI love the brilliant contrast in the lines "I'd draw you a beautiful diagram / outlining my perfectly flawed thoughts". The ending lines are great. Very relatable.
ReplyDeletePowerful... I agree w/ Heaven. I especially like:
ReplyDeleteis it wrong that I hope you'll hear this plea
and tell me you knew me all along
is it wrong that I hope I'm a horrible liar
and you'll tell me you have loved me all along
that you were just waiting for me
to be okay
with me