0 if only i could...

Twice now I've started the week with an overwhelming desire to quit.  I sat at the top of the stairs with the anxiety twisting inside me and all I could do was wish for an end.  Unfortunately there does not seem to be an end in sight.  For as I sat there completely resolved to the fact, I should have known better.  By the time I made it to the bottom of the steps I knew I wouldn't quit.  I'm chicken.  That's the truth.  Also scared of the unknown.  Not to mention that I fear if I were to make such a life altering decision people would assume the wrong reason behind my decision.  So I'm left to continue on this path no matter how unhappy I may be with it.