imagine going through life feeling like an outsider. imagine being surround by people you know, family and friends, and feeling like you don't belong. i can't imagine it is an easy thing to imagine. but it is my life. constantly surrounded by those i love, those who love me and i feel like i am a separate entity, as though i have nothing to add or offer that they could possible want. it is a sad life. it is lonely life.
i don't feel invisible, though at times i wish i were. i feel like i'm in a glass box, separate yet apart. i wish i knew how to break out of the box. i know it is one of my own creation. it would be nice to feel as though i were a part of something, as though i belonged. in my head, somewhere deep down, i know that i do belong. i just don't feel as though i do.